Being Critical Of Others

For all the recent years of my life, I developed a character which I believe would put a fairly large dent onto my "sweet and nice" personality. A few years ago I realised how critical of a person I can be. I would always have something negative to say about someone's idea, suggestion, opinion or just something they said. Then one of my friend subtly let out that it can be pretty unpleasant, so I decided I would really have to suppress all these urges to criticize everything.

But lately, I think I'm being like that again. I say almost everything on my mind without thinking twice that it might perhaps annoy the other person. Sometimes I just can't control it and it just slips out of my mouth. Only after I said it, I regret.

I suppose there are many things which triggers me into my critical mode. One of them is hypocrisy. I cannot tolerate hypocrites. I really, really do not like it when people say one thing, but does another. I mean, say what you mean, and do what you mean. Oh and also fickle and indecisive people. Like when arguing, at the beginning they will be arguing one point but somewhere in the middle they changed course and end up backing up something else. I don't know but it just ticks me off that people cannot stand by their original arguing point.

You know some part of the saying "like father, like son" is true. My parents are pretty competitive and critical people. I get annoyed when they behave like that to me. But when I am with others, I behave that way as well. At first I did not realise it until it came to a certain point when other people started saying something. It's a scary thought, that someday perhaps I won't have any friends because of my critical attitude. =/

Sigh. I suppose I should take a day or two to sink into deep thought about this and then stop criticizing other people's ideas, suggestions or thoughts. It pretty much puts people off. Yep, with parents I should know. The weird thing is I don't get like that with them, probably because they're like that too. The only person I don't get critical with is my Teddy, not that I'm bias or anything but he makes me feel so relax and I can talk just about anything to him. Yep, he's that great. =D

Ah well, that doesn't mean I should not change. Nothing wrong in trying to improve yourself. =)